As I mentioned yesterday, I've signed up for the 12wbt. It kicks off in mid Feb but until then there are pre-season tasks to do.
I was actually a bit annoyed that we didn't just jump right into it but I keep reminding myself that this is about doing something different to get a different outcome. So I'm just going with it.
The first task was simple - introduce yourself. I put a little blurb about who I am and what my goals are on the 12wbt forums. That was pretty straight forward. I don't think I should be over analysing anything here.
The second task is Get Real. This involves making a list of all the excuses you've ever used and then writing a counter argument or response. I haven't done this one yet. I want to sit down tonight and put some serious thought into it - and probably add more over the next week as I think of others.
The third task is set your goals. I have done this one. This was harder than I expected. I think I've always been very general in my goals. I've thought "I want to weight x kilos and wear clothes a, b and c". It was good to break things down a bit more and think harder about goals in terms of health and fitness.
That's about it for the day. I'm currently focused on getting back into blogging because it helps keep me on track.
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Monday, January 23, 2012
2012
2011 was a write off. I injured my back pretty badly and everything went downhill from there. Its amazing how depressing chronic injury is.
I really don't want to analyse it any more because its not productive. I think I'm much better off thinking about the new year and my goals.
So right now I'm around 124kg which is quite a shock. I know this is the biggest I've ever been. I really never expected to be looking down the barrel of 40 and still being fat (I turn 39 this year).
One thing I learned last year and the year before is that some things just don't work for me. Weight Watchers - although an excellent approach and something I would recommend for many - just isn't my thing. Neither are gyms, although I try to convince myself otherwise.
What suits me it regular walking and minor obsession. In light of this I've signed up for the Michelle Bridges 12WBT (12 week body transformation). It's an online-community based exercise and diet program over 12 weeks. That takes care of the obsession thing - I'll be able to be focused and bloody minded about it for three months.
The second thing - regular walking - will serve me well for some time to come. At 124kg walking is safe and will burn a hell of a lot of calories. When my fitness improves I'll get more strenuous but for now it's walking and adding more hills and distance as I go.
And that's it really. I'm back on board without any fanfare or announcements that "this time I'll really do it and I'm so motivated and everything is just grand". I've just got to do what I know will work.
I really don't want to analyse it any more because its not productive. I think I'm much better off thinking about the new year and my goals.
So right now I'm around 124kg which is quite a shock. I know this is the biggest I've ever been. I really never expected to be looking down the barrel of 40 and still being fat (I turn 39 this year).
One thing I learned last year and the year before is that some things just don't work for me. Weight Watchers - although an excellent approach and something I would recommend for many - just isn't my thing. Neither are gyms, although I try to convince myself otherwise.
What suits me it regular walking and minor obsession. In light of this I've signed up for the Michelle Bridges 12WBT (12 week body transformation). It's an online-community based exercise and diet program over 12 weeks. That takes care of the obsession thing - I'll be able to be focused and bloody minded about it for three months.
The second thing - regular walking - will serve me well for some time to come. At 124kg walking is safe and will burn a hell of a lot of calories. When my fitness improves I'll get more strenuous but for now it's walking and adding more hills and distance as I go.
And that's it really. I'm back on board without any fanfare or announcements that "this time I'll really do it and I'm so motivated and everything is just grand". I've just got to do what I know will work.
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Ok, back into it then!
The enthusiasm for really getting stuck into the new WW plan did not fade overnight. The fella and I toasted the end of his birthday "week" (well, he did turn 40 so he decided he needed a whole week of celebration). Time to get myself organised!
Actually, being organised in my life in general makes it easier to be organised with food and exercise. If my environment is clean and fresh feeling then I feel unencumbered and free to focus on important things. It just gives me mental and physical space to know unfinished tasks are not looming.
In light of this, there is going to be some serious organising today. Today I will:
- defrost the fridge
- do a big FRESH grocery shop which includes things for packed lunches next week (no more buying lunch)
- sort out the bedroom which is a bit of a mess at moment.
- divide my knitting projects into things I will definitely finish and those that need to be abandoned and wound back into skeins.
- iron my shirts.
It sounds like a bit list but it's not actually that huge. I can still get all this done and still kick back and relax today.
Food and exercise wise I'm going to:
- shop well and plan meals
- go for a walk of at least 1 hour
Sounds good. There is rain forecast for this afternoon so I'd better get cracking on the outdoor activities (shopping and going for a walk) first.
Actually, being organised in my life in general makes it easier to be organised with food and exercise. If my environment is clean and fresh feeling then I feel unencumbered and free to focus on important things. It just gives me mental and physical space to know unfinished tasks are not looming.
In light of this, there is going to be some serious organising today. Today I will:
- defrost the fridge
- do a big FRESH grocery shop which includes things for packed lunches next week (no more buying lunch)
- sort out the bedroom which is a bit of a mess at moment.
- divide my knitting projects into things I will definitely finish and those that need to be abandoned and wound back into skeins.
- iron my shirts.
It sounds like a bit list but it's not actually that huge. I can still get all this done and still kick back and relax today.
Food and exercise wise I'm going to:
- shop well and plan meals
- go for a walk of at least 1 hour
Sounds good. There is rain forecast for this afternoon so I'd better get cracking on the outdoor activities (shopping and going for a walk) first.
Friday, August 5, 2011
Not Very Organised
Well, after joining (rejoining) WW four weeks ago I haven't been back. But I'm going to jump up and down and declare it's not my fault. It is, but my excuses are actually really good ones.
The first week I got on the bus in time to get to the meeting (trains on my line were replaced by buses that week). The bus trip which should have been 50 minutes ended up taking two hours. So, I'm not going to blame myself for that one, I was bloody lucky to get to work on time.
The next week I had to start work early and the last two weeks I wasn't even in town - I was out at woop-woop enjoying my fellas 40th birthday festivities.
So yeah, a crap start but life goes on. I actually entertained the idea of just saying "stuff it" and not going back at all, but even I realised how stupid that was. So NEXT Thursday I'll be able to rock up.
During to the 40th birthday festivities and the past month in general, I have barely given a thought to eating better. There has been so much beer and food around that, although I haven't gone nuts, I'd guarantee nothing like a loss.
But yesterday on the last day of frivolity, I felt very old and tired and fat. It was a combination of squashing my fat arse into a a dress circle seat at the Princess Theatre and popping into Myer for a new shirt turning into a disappointing purchase of a nice but kind of matronly black top in size 20. This morning the fella even said "I've got to lose some weight" so even he was feeling a bit gross after our winter season of sloth.
I'm really happy to be feeling excited about getting back into WW now, whereas a month ago I joined because I knew I had to and was hoping to create a little wave of enthusiasm based on having "done the right thing". It now feels like the timing is right.
So today I had a facial, got a haircut, bought a couple of t-shirts at Target (bless Target for having some non-matronly gear) and started to feel excited.
Tomorrow is shopping day which means stocking up on fresh goodies. I've lost enthusiasm for cooking over the past months and have been relying on the old standby of pasta or fritters for dinner which is not nutritionally ideal. Staying enthusiastic about cooking is hard, but being organised helps a lot. I might even write a shopping list.
The first week I got on the bus in time to get to the meeting (trains on my line were replaced by buses that week). The bus trip which should have been 50 minutes ended up taking two hours. So, I'm not going to blame myself for that one, I was bloody lucky to get to work on time.
The next week I had to start work early and the last two weeks I wasn't even in town - I was out at woop-woop enjoying my fellas 40th birthday festivities.
So yeah, a crap start but life goes on. I actually entertained the idea of just saying "stuff it" and not going back at all, but even I realised how stupid that was. So NEXT Thursday I'll be able to rock up.
During to the 40th birthday festivities and the past month in general, I have barely given a thought to eating better. There has been so much beer and food around that, although I haven't gone nuts, I'd guarantee nothing like a loss.
But yesterday on the last day of frivolity, I felt very old and tired and fat. It was a combination of squashing my fat arse into a a dress circle seat at the Princess Theatre and popping into Myer for a new shirt turning into a disappointing purchase of a nice but kind of matronly black top in size 20. This morning the fella even said "I've got to lose some weight" so even he was feeling a bit gross after our winter season of sloth.
I'm really happy to be feeling excited about getting back into WW now, whereas a month ago I joined because I knew I had to and was hoping to create a little wave of enthusiasm based on having "done the right thing". It now feels like the timing is right.
So today I had a facial, got a haircut, bought a couple of t-shirts at Target (bless Target for having some non-matronly gear) and started to feel excited.
Tomorrow is shopping day which means stocking up on fresh goodies. I've lost enthusiasm for cooking over the past months and have been relying on the old standby of pasta or fritters for dinner which is not nutritionally ideal. Staying enthusiastic about cooking is hard, but being organised helps a lot. I might even write a shopping list.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Back
(This bit in bold added later same day) Oh Fuck it! (sorry about the language for anyone offended). I locked my blog to make it private. I need the comments and support damn it! So, blog be public again and to hell with the consequences. I can't see anyone bagging me for going back to WW after saying it didn't work for me. And if they do what's the worst that will happen - ummmm.... nothing?
Back because my back hurts and back because I'm here again.
Back because my back hurts and back because I'm here again.
Nearly six full months since I last blogged last. Bugger. It's a reflection of how I've kind of lost the plot. A string of minor illnesses and poor organisation resulting in insufficient sleep.Oh yeah, and winter. Winter can be depressing and makes it hard to get off my arse and move.
This pattern is too familiar and now I'm back at 121.6kg. Yay me (not).
I've felt like I've lost the plot and I've been going to the gym very infrequently which sucks a lot. I have three early starts at work this week which means two gym days. That's better than the last couple of weeks (or months) so I'll take it. Every day will be super early so at least I'll have a consistent wakeup.
Also - and I'm in two minds about whether this is a good or bad thing - I've gone back to WW. After giving it some thought over the past two weeks I thought I'd just get in there and try again. They have a new program which means I won't be able to feel that I know it all and I can "get away with" whatever I want. I don't feel smarter than the program at the moment.
Actually, the new program is kind of complex and will take a bit of getting used to.
Because I so proudly trumpeted about how I was over WW and it just didn't work for me, I've also made this blog private. I don't really want to be writing with an audience in mind. This is now my diary.
So the thing to do now is get my head around the new WW program, tell Geoff that's what I'm doing and apply it. GO TO MEETINGS, stick with it. Don't get complacent.
I miss feeling good about my body SO MUCH. I don't feel healthy, I just feel very overweight. I've been having back problems this year and I hate squashing my fat arse (and gut and chest and legs and back) into an airline seat.
My portion sizes are out of control, I don't exercise and I'm not organising my supermarket shop to get any sort of planning or nutrition.
Aarrruuughhhhh. .................... So. This week. Learn the program. Go to the gym twice, go for a walk of 1 hour min each Saturday and Sunday. That's it. I can do this.
Any WW weigh in is on Thursday so I really want a loss by then.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Monday
It's hot and crappy today in Melbourne and because I've had insufficient sleep (about 5 restless hours) I fee truly sick. I'll take a panadol and feel better but geez I feel bad right now.
I'm kind of proud that I made it to the gym anyway, especially as G is suffering from the heat and lack of sleep too but he just couldn't make it to gym this morning. So I went alone and did as much as I could. That was only 10mins on the treadmill and 15 mins on the bike followed by some decent stretching because I'm feeling a bit shin-splinty.
After feeling a bit miserable and whingey all weekend I'm back to wanting to take on the world - despite feeling kind of sick. It's a bit of a long story but here goes.
I watched The Biggest Loser last night. I am not a fan of the show but I was sucked in and there was nothing else on. So I was watching what the overweight families ate on a regular basis.
Actually, I don't believe these people ate ALL that food on a regular basis. I'm sure they were playing up for the cameras.
Because I don't really know how fat I look to other people, I kind of assume I look as fat as the people on TBL. So I said to G "I don't eat like that - I wouldn't even eat half of what they are eating and I'm the same size. What the hell is going on there?". I think I was partly fishing for him to say "You are nowhere near as big as them" but he didn't. So although I was half saying I was as big as the women on the show so that G would say "no you're not" I kind of wonder whether I am.
I'm fairly sure I'm not because my belly doesn't sit on my lap when I'm seated and the width across my elbow is wider than my forearm - not narrower. But hey, what do I know.
So I decided to operate as though I am that big. The advice I'd give to the people on TBL would be to count EVERY calorie, plan your meals so you are prepared and avoid sweets. So that's what I'm going to do this week. Keep it simple - do the basics I know that I should and approach it as though I am a beginner at this weight loss thing.
Oh - and I got my bike out of the shed and have booked him in for a service. Trevor the Wonderbike will hit the roads this weekend
I'm kind of proud that I made it to the gym anyway, especially as G is suffering from the heat and lack of sleep too but he just couldn't make it to gym this morning. So I went alone and did as much as I could. That was only 10mins on the treadmill and 15 mins on the bike followed by some decent stretching because I'm feeling a bit shin-splinty.
After feeling a bit miserable and whingey all weekend I'm back to wanting to take on the world - despite feeling kind of sick. It's a bit of a long story but here goes.
I watched The Biggest Loser last night. I am not a fan of the show but I was sucked in and there was nothing else on. So I was watching what the overweight families ate on a regular basis.
Actually, I don't believe these people ate ALL that food on a regular basis. I'm sure they were playing up for the cameras.
Because I don't really know how fat I look to other people, I kind of assume I look as fat as the people on TBL. So I said to G "I don't eat like that - I wouldn't even eat half of what they are eating and I'm the same size. What the hell is going on there?". I think I was partly fishing for him to say "You are nowhere near as big as them" but he didn't. So although I was half saying I was as big as the women on the show so that G would say "no you're not" I kind of wonder whether I am.
I'm fairly sure I'm not because my belly doesn't sit on my lap when I'm seated and the width across my elbow is wider than my forearm - not narrower. But hey, what do I know.
So I decided to operate as though I am that big. The advice I'd give to the people on TBL would be to count EVERY calorie, plan your meals so you are prepared and avoid sweets. So that's what I'm going to do this week. Keep it simple - do the basics I know that I should and approach it as though I am a beginner at this weight loss thing.
Oh - and I got my bike out of the shed and have booked him in for a service. Trevor the Wonderbike will hit the roads this weekend
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Rest time is coming to a close
I've been a bit drained lately. I just haven't seemed to have had time for anything and so my blog, my eating and my gym time have suffered. I think some of it has been due to lack of organisation so I'm staying up late and sleeping past my alarm.
Part of it is because of anaemia and the resulting lack of energy - and I'm glad to say I'm feeling a lot better now. And I think that part of it is the need for change.
I've been doing the same thing now for four months (in terms of food and exercise) and I've made some really good progress, but now it's just all same-same and I'd like something new.
Yes, I know that this is a long-term change of lifestyle thing and but I just need something new to get excited about. I initially thought I'd go swimming.
This plan didn't get very far - I have no local options for this. The "rivers" around Bacchus Marsh are more like what I'd call a creek where I grew up, and they look all muddy and shallow anyway. it's not exactly 60m crossings of the Murrumbidgee. The local pool is open in summer but opens at 11am and closes around 6pm. Clearly making the pool available at the peak sunburn times is a priority here - and ensuring that by opening these hours the place will be packed with screaming school children and swimming laps will be impossible......
So there goes that great idea. We don't have a car so I need to be reasonable about what I can do. It's just not practical to spend 90 minutes on public transport each way getting to a pool for a 45 minute splishy splashy.
This leaves me the spending time with Trevor. Yeah, I know I've said it before - that I'll get Trev out of the shed, pump up his tyres and take him for a spin, but I haven't. It's just all seemed too hard. Now I'm feeling a lot more energetic thanks to healthier haemoglobin it might actually happen. It might even happen tonight.
So basically today I'm having a whinge. Yay me. Getting back to the gym tomorrow and full-on calorie tracking will probably stop the whingeing. I'm fine once I've started something, I'm just really annoying in the lead-up. I probably should do something about this.
Anyway, as I'm mentioned before, this Wednesday I'll do a stocktake with PT Quagmire. I'll get some feedback from him. It's obviously a food thing and not an exercise thing so I need to sort out that area of my life. I might even do a two week 1250cal/day thing to give me a bit of a push along.
For those who don't know, I call him Quagmire after the sex-obsessed character in Family Guy. When I first met him I thought "Whoa - you are some pervy guy and no I don't want to have sex with you thanks very much". After a few chats I realised he's probably all talk and I've really come to like him a lot. He's a good guy, very good at his job and unlike me seems to be able to see the good side of almost anyone. (Whereas I'm a picky bitch when I'm tired or cranky).
So here's a link to Quagmire - looks a bit like him too..
http://www.localfitness.com.au/genesis-fitness-clubs-flinders-st-melbourne/personal-trainer-jason
Part of it is because of anaemia and the resulting lack of energy - and I'm glad to say I'm feeling a lot better now. And I think that part of it is the need for change.
I've been doing the same thing now for four months (in terms of food and exercise) and I've made some really good progress, but now it's just all same-same and I'd like something new.
Yes, I know that this is a long-term change of lifestyle thing and but I just need something new to get excited about. I initially thought I'd go swimming.
This plan didn't get very far - I have no local options for this. The "rivers" around Bacchus Marsh are more like what I'd call a creek where I grew up, and they look all muddy and shallow anyway. it's not exactly 60m crossings of the Murrumbidgee. The local pool is open in summer but opens at 11am and closes around 6pm. Clearly making the pool available at the peak sunburn times is a priority here - and ensuring that by opening these hours the place will be packed with screaming school children and swimming laps will be impossible......
So there goes that great idea. We don't have a car so I need to be reasonable about what I can do. It's just not practical to spend 90 minutes on public transport each way getting to a pool for a 45 minute splishy splashy.
This leaves me the spending time with Trevor. Yeah, I know I've said it before - that I'll get Trev out of the shed, pump up his tyres and take him for a spin, but I haven't. It's just all seemed too hard. Now I'm feeling a lot more energetic thanks to healthier haemoglobin it might actually happen. It might even happen tonight.
So basically today I'm having a whinge. Yay me. Getting back to the gym tomorrow and full-on calorie tracking will probably stop the whingeing. I'm fine once I've started something, I'm just really annoying in the lead-up. I probably should do something about this.
Anyway, as I'm mentioned before, this Wednesday I'll do a stocktake with PT Quagmire. I'll get some feedback from him. It's obviously a food thing and not an exercise thing so I need to sort out that area of my life. I might even do a two week 1250cal/day thing to give me a bit of a push along.
For those who don't know, I call him Quagmire after the sex-obsessed character in Family Guy. When I first met him I thought "Whoa - you are some pervy guy and no I don't want to have sex with you thanks very much". After a few chats I realised he's probably all talk and I've really come to like him a lot. He's a good guy, very good at his job and unlike me seems to be able to see the good side of almost anyone. (Whereas I'm a picky bitch when I'm tired or cranky).
So here's a link to Quagmire - looks a bit like him too..
http://www.localfitness.com.au/genesis-fitness-clubs-flinders-st-melbourne/personal-trainer-jason
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